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Feb
10
There was a time when I was being such a movie junkie. That was about two years ago and I don’t know what happened to my old hobby. Maybe I outgrew it. Like a phase– like outgrowing your having same sex crushes. Only the crushes part is not true for me. Anyways, I will be posting my top 10 favorite movies (duh).
I based the ranking purely on how much I enjoyed watching the movie and how much I have watched it almost every other month. I do not care about cinematography and other technical stuff because I do not know a lot about them. I say I’d let the critics deal with them. So yeah. Read at your own risk.
10. Sarong Banggi - Angelo Ilagan, Jaclyn Jose
This film restored my faith to the Filipino movie industry. This is the reason why we should watch more independent films– independent films like the creative ones not the ‘independent-pornlike’ films that claim having a gay or socially relevant topic and a crappy story would earn them the name ‘independent’ ones. This made me forget about the moral sins of Filipino producers– making movies like Enteng Kabisote, Shake Rattle and Roll produces year 2005+, and some unmemorable dramas by some failed love teams like Aljur Abrenica and Kris Bernal. I am in love with movies that has a huge twist in the middle to end parts. And I love how it portrayed damaged characters with a plot too radical for a typical Filipino’s taste. I say this is one of the major steps the Filipino movie industry had taken to liberation.
9. Little Children – Patrick Wilson, Kate Winslet
This film deserved all those Oscar nominations. It’s funny how I was able to relate on the story in a very personal level when it talks about betrayal, adultery, and frustration. It’s funny how you sometimes try so hard just to get something, or someone, and find out in the end that everything you have done would never matter. To others and to yourself. This film shows that. Plus there is a community psycho that makes the story very interesting– for me at least since I am a Psychology major. He is the only one character in this movie (plus his grandma) that can make you cry and feel bad about it because he was after all, a bad person.
8. Y tu Mama Tambien – Gael Garcia Bernal, Diego Luna, Maribel Verdu
Ah, of course. The movie starts off with a very intense sexual intercourse. What more can you ask for? Well director Alfonso Cuaron actually can give you more. I knew I would love this movie the moment the narrator starts talking about things we normally never pay attention to. It made me feel special in a way. Plus it will keep you wondering the whole time if what the narrator has been babbling about throughout the film would be relevant in the end. Plus Gael Garcia Bernal would make you scream ‘Caliente mucho!’.
7. Changeling – Angelina Jolie
This movie made me cry about 5 times in a single watching. Angelina Jolie’s acting was flawless. FLAWLESS. She can make you feel a mother’s pain for losing a child even if you don’t have any children. She can make you feel very feminist even if you were born in a patriarchal family, and she can make you hate cops like devils. Her acting on this movie was on par with the usual Meryl Streep. I am telling you, it was flawless. And the story was based on what happened in real life so you will feel it more. Thinking that that could happen in real life, this movie can make you feel hatred towards humanity. And if that is not a reason for loving a movie then I don’t know what is.
6. Pan’s Labyrinth (El Labirinto del Fauno) - Maribel Verdu
Guillermo del Toro just made me an ‘Adult-Fairytale’ fan because of this film– and I never knew there was such a genre before. I love how the movie made me feel confused and amused (hey, it rhymes!) at the same time. It gives you that ‘out-of-body’ experience while watching because at some point in the movie you might have already convinced yourself that the faun was something you’d see in real life. When you are stuck in a very horrible place with a step father, you’re mother is dying, plus there is a war– then some mysterious creature appears and says that you are a princess (or prince, whichever you prefer) and will take you in the world where you really belong after completing some weird tasks, will you believe it? Will you take the risk? And what if the creature is giving you a lot of reasons not to believe him? Trust me, this movie will leave you in awe.
5. Ordinary People – Timothy Hutton, Donald Sutherland, Mary Tyler Moore
This film revolves around Survivor’s Guilt. And if that is not hard enough, add the fact that your mother blames you for staying alive. You have to fall in love with this film. And you have to fall in love with how good Timothy Hutton looks like when he was a lot younger. 
I must say, the Oscars were very well deserved. Especially for Mr. Hutton who gave me chills when he started shouting at his Psychiatrist– the Psychiatrist who took part in making this film get rave reviews since this was one of the first films who portrayed Psychiatrists as good people. Hey, you have to give us credit sometimes! Oh, and did I mention you’d have a hard time breathing because this movie WILL make you cry HARD.
4. Fight Club – Brad Pitt, Edward Norton
Who would not love Fight Club? You only need to put Brad Pitt, Edward Norton, and the word ‘homoerotic’ and the movie will be a sure hit! Gay-ness aside, the movie is a treat. And you watching it means adding this movie to your favorite movies list. I love movies with huge twists, and this one gives you a twist that will turn your whole movie watching experience upside down. Oh I love psych films. I won’t say more because I don’t want to ruin your movie experience if you haven’t watched this one yet. Do me a favor. Watch this one.
And did I mention I am in love with Edward Norton?
3. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind – Jim Carrey, Kate Winslet, Kirsten Dunst, Elijah Wood
How happy is the blameless vestal’s lot? The world forgotten by the world forgot? Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. Each prayer accepted and each wish resigned.
People who are experience some emotional pain would love this movie. I have to tell you, my tumbler’s design now is Eternal Sunshine inspired. This movie may be boring to some because of how unusual the plot is without something very intense happening for a long time but movie goers, and I mean people who have watched quite a few would appreciate this one. The plot is very creative and it gives your naughty little mind to wonder what would happen if you had the opportunity to do the same thing for someone you loved and lost. Trust me. You’d almost wish Lacuna was real.
2. La Mala Educacion (Bad Education) – Gael Garcia Bernal
This one may be too liberal for your taste, but I am telling you, if you are fine with gay sex scenes, you will greatly appreciate this very artistic, very creative, and out of this world film by Pedro Almodovar. I am telling you, if you love watching films about controversial topics, this one should definitely on your must-watch list. This is one of the movies that has a huge twist in the middle to end part so I won’t tell you much about it but really, if you are not bothered by some(?) nudity, watch this. I have a DVD, I can let you borrow it. I am willing to do that, just promise you will return it because it took me years to find one.
1. Toy Story 2 – Tim Allen, Tom Hanks
From the animation studio that brought a number of miraculous animated films in this world- PIXAR. This movie never fails to make me cry. Everytime I watch Jesse’s scene about her being forgotten by her owner I cry hard. And I mean EVERYTIME. Add Sarah McLachlan’s song When Somebody Loved Me into the background and you’ll be taking a very scary emotional rollercoaster. I am so glad Toy Story 3 will be showing this June. Pixar is love.
Feb
04
Okay, don’t freak out. I know this is something I used to do when we were still in college but don’t worry. I know we are not in college anymore. I actually have to remind myself that everyday but you know, I go by just fine.
I don’t really know why I am writing something for you since we already made this unspoken vow to just pretend that we never really knew each other. Maybe it’s because of the beer. But that’s highly unlikely since I just consumed one bottle before I went home. Oh, I went out with some of the people I work with and drank a little. By the time we were about to go home I heard someone saying, jokingly, that they were planning on making me cry. Which was weird because I never really share personal stuff with other people too much. But when I thought about it, even though I found it very odd coming from them, I was reminded of only one person. You. You were the only person that ever made me cry. Actually you were able to make me do that a lot of times before. So yeah, it is probably because of the teasing.
Don’t worry. Even though I am starting to get emotional and I know I am about to type something I promised I won’t talk about anymore let me make it clear as early as now that I am not crying. I am being bombarded with a lot of the feelings I used to feel then, but no, no crying.
I was on my way home when I really started thinking about you. And I have to admit, the feeling was quite strange. You know, it has been a long time since I last did this so.. yeah. This is normal, no? Err.. probably not.
The people I have met after college, everyone, they are great. I have very few, if not nothing, bad to say about them. But honestly, no one really gets me like you did. Sure I laugh with them, I have to enjoy myself too, I know that– despite what I went through. But I don’t really feel like someone would understand me if I don’t try and explain myself. Which is not a good thing since I have always been bad at explaining myself. I am so doomed.
I remember how we used to laugh about things that only us understand. And I know we tend to say negative things about other people when we know that nobody else hears us, but deep inside I know that we only do that to bond. You know how we both love to laugh. And sometimes we don’t even realize that even though we started walking around the campus with the whole clique, we find ourselves alone and not even minding where everybody else is.
And how wonderful those days were when I can see you talking like we will never have tomorrow, your eyes focused on mine. I have to admit, that was one of the reasons why I really got into you. We never seem to see anyone else when we start talking. Like really, talking.
And I know most of our friends thought it was weird that we used to talk over the phone for hours, but I honestly enjoy every second of it. I remember most, if not all, of the things we talked about back then. And that’s a lot to remember. You know that.
I know we were thinking about the same thing when our professor in Marriage and Family was talking crap about the difference between men and women and that men really don’t like talking for hours over the phone. Even if we were not in good terms at those times anymore, I know we both know how big an idiot Mr. <insert prof name here> was.
You liked talking. I liked listening. I liked writing, you payed attention to most of the things that I wrote, but never really thought most of them were about you.
I know I should’ve understood how you went and left me, in a way, when you tried and entered a romantic relationship. I mean, I was your friend. Only I didn’t. And I think you and I both know now why I wasn’t able to grasp things back then.
I feel sorry for my actions after this. I know you tried to reach out to me a lot of times. And most of the time I was ignoring you, if not, I was being rude.
Of course no one would ever stand that. I mean, you were trying to keep the connection, the friendship alive. I was being mean. I was, and I think that was because of how much pain I went through. But I never really considered how much pain you were in after your break up. Maybe you needed a friend. But it was not the same anymore. And of course, how could I ever understand someone who wants to cry on my shoulders about someone else when I am still fucking in love with that person?
Everything died. The spark. The walking together. The gazes. The laughing. The talking. Everything. And most of it was my fault. And if I didn’t tell you how I really felt, maybe we would’ve had the chance to part in a better way. But what happened happened. I knew I had to deal with it.
Which brings me back to wondering why I am writing you this letter. I mean, really? After all these months I start feeling this now?
I guess what I am trying to say is that I miss you a whole lot. I miss everything we used to do and talk about. I miss having someone who understands how weird I am. I miss feeling happy every night before I go to sleep because I was able to speak with someone very dear to me.
We haven’t seen each other for almost a year now.
We haven’t talked to each other for a year and a half.
But we both know we have to deal with it, right? I mean, I have to do most of the ‘dealing with’ part, but I know you get some hard times to too.
Oh, and I changed my phone number because of you. I didn’t want to be tempted to greet you a happy birthday when your birthday came. You know how I get carried away most oft he time that I forget I was not supposed to have any connections with you anymore. Look at how this letter turned out.
But yeah. For what it’s worth, I miss you. And it’s sad but I guess I have to find someone else that would understand me like you did. Someone who would make me feel good about myself.
I hope you make good choices in the future. Don’t make any more stupid people cry, alright? Don’t let them end up like me. I know you know how hard it is to get over you.
Feb
01
Tamblur
One of my friends asked me to post this one because I was telling almost all of my friends that I finally was able to buy my dream ‘Design Your Own’ tumbler. Hooray for me! I really wanted to have one of these eversince college, I wasn’t able to buy it then because of how expensive college was (hindi kasya ang baon ko kaka fastfood, pamasahe mula bahay hanggang UST, at iba pang excuses) so I bought it just last month. I know, I graduated last April but whatever. Anyways, I always wanted to put pictures of either Edward Norton, Ewan McGregor, or Robi Domingo in it. But that would be too gay, even for me. And Everybody else who would see it would have to say sorry to their eyes.
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Just a few minutes ago I was looking around (I am in a computer shop) and I saw a kid, about 9 years old-ish, surfing the internet and watching porn. He caught me glancing at his screen and he immediately minimized it, looking guilty. Wow. Really. Wow. When I was in grade school I never really thought about sex. Honestly. I know it’s hard to believe that now considering the themes of my posts here, but really. What is happening to the innocence of children these days? I wish they would play outdoor games like I used to some years ago. Now that Ithink about it, I don’t really see a lot of children in our area playing Tumbang Preso and stuff. Is sex the new Tumbang Preso for children these days? These children need some serious intervention.
Jan
28
Pano naligaw sa blog ko to?
Okeey
EXPLAIN! Hahahaha.
Note: Post based on Timangkey’s and my old Weirdest Search Terms post.
